The pain from hell is here again. It's attacking my insides, ripping me apart and I don’t know what to do...
POEM| Pain From Hell

The pain from hell is here again. It's attacking my insides, ripping me apart and I don’t know what to do...
For others, it's just another day. For me, the 12th of November is;
I thought I knew you but your words became insulting your behaviour became confusing your demeanor became controlling
I know about suffering because I’ve been there It comes with a lot of tears and sleepless nights
I spent every day at the hospital
but I didn’t care
I spent my birthday at the hospital
but I didn’t care
My head is spinning
and I can’t control it
Looking for my voice
but I can’t seem to find it
Many nights I've prayed
for a minute
with you again
The scars of loss
have left me a mess
I’m dreaming while awake
and hurting every step of the way
I don’t have to answer your calls
I don’t have to reply to your messages
I don’t have to tell you how my day went
I don’t have to answer the door when you come by
Dear Mama,
I never thought of today
without you in it
I never knew you wouldn’t
see me become the woman
you taught me to be