Sadness and anger
are both dissipated
and have transformed
into something bitter
that I can’t get the taste
out of my mouth

Disappointment clouds my mind
and so does regret
I blame myself for letting you in
even though you wore a facade
that I couldn’t see through
until it was too late

In hindsight, I should have known
because the things I overlooked
are now starting to make sense
But I was too engaged to think deep
and lost myself 
while being open

I watched my world change in a flash like a movie
and as I now look from the outside
I wonder who I was 
and how I derailed from my true self
Though I am still bitter, 
I am also filled with relief

Mariam Shittu