POEM| 3am Thoughts

Have you ever thought of putting a pistol in your mouth?
I won’t lie 
I’ve thought about holding a gun
a bit too much
I should probably tell someone
I imagine myself
getting astonished by it’s weight
caressing it’s smoothness
and feeling invigorated by it’s power
loading it up with bullets
taking it off safety
aiming at objects
and imagining they are people
who have hurt me in the past
shooting at them one by one
and feeling a release
then putting it in my mouth
and pulling the trigger

Mariam Shittu

This is purely fiction.