POEM| I Don’t Want To Run Away

It feels like this is it
what I’ve been waiting for

I’ve hit the jackpot
but I can’t feel the wins

tired of being alone
and should be glad you’re here

but I still feel empty
and I don’t know why

lost in my thoughts
and using liquor to soothe my fears

wondering why I like you here
but also like you away from here 

I don’t understand 
why this is happening to me

I can’t take this anymore
but I don’t want to run away

Mariam Shittu