I Should Be Excited Right?

The year is coming to an end. I should be excited right?
I feel valued at work. I should be excited right?
I finally recruited an assistant. I should be excited right?
I’m getting some time off work soon. I should be excited right?

It’s almost time for detty December. I should be excited right?
Christmas is coming. I should be excited right?
I saved better this year. I should be excited right?
My siblings and I are all going to be together again soon. I should be excited right?

I have less anxiety. I should be excited right?
I still love writing. I should be excited right?
I feel blessed. I should be excited right?
I feel loved. I should be excited right?

So why do I feel so empty inside?

Mariam Shittu