Back Here

I’ve been here before
I promised myself I would never be here again
But here I am 

Back here…

A place I’m ashamed to be
A place I know I’m not ready for
A place I can’t be who I am

Back here…

Wondering if the ground can swallow me up
Longing for a truck to run me over
Wanting a bomb to blow me away

Back here…

With pain
With regret
With disappointment

Back here…

Where I will be all by myself
Where I will be judged without a chance to explain
Where I will have to do everything on my own

Back here…

With tears stinging my eyes
Worry burning my veins
And fear consuming my being

Back here…

Why did I come here
How did I get here
Knowing what I had to spare

Back here…

Wish I didn’t have to think this again
Pray I find a way out again
Hope I would never be here again

Written by Mariam Shittu 

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10 thoughts on “Back Here

  1. Very moving poem Mariam.
    Btw, I nominated you for a Mystery Blogger Award! This is in no way obligatory. But I hope you participate. “Mystery Blogger Award” is an award for amazing bloggers with ingenious posts. Their blog not only captivates; it inspires and motivates. They are one of the best out there, and they deserve every recognition they get. This award is also for bloggers who find fun and inspiration in blogging; and they do it with so much love and passion. Okoto Enigma

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