Life Update| May-June 2021

When I began writing my life updates, I legit thought it was going to be regular. Let’s say life happened because the last life update post I shared was in July 2020.

In April, I shared a recap of my Q1. It was a summary of the happenings in my life from January to March. I can’t believe it’s already June! Month 6 of 12. I’m in that phase where a lot of things are happening, and nothing is happening at the same time. Have you ever felt this way? The year is speeding, and I’m trying to catch up with it because the last thing I want is for it to be December 2021, and I feel unaccomplished.

I’ve been overwhelmed lately. Not lately, but for some time. I took two weeks off work in May because I felt like I couldn’t breathe any longer. I’m back to my regular schedule and it feels like the break never happened. I just always feel like I’m doing so much and thinking about so much at the same time and I want the noise and actions to stop all at once. But then, if everything stops, will I be able to live with the quiet and silence? I don’t think so. On the flip side, I’m happy I have blogging/writing to keep me sane.

Somehow, I still shared eight posts on the blog in May. I struggled more than usual to make it to 8, but I’m glad I did. Even if everything falls apart in my life, one thing I never want to die is my blog. And as I get busier, I’m not making as much time for it as I’d like. So, I’ve decided to work with a blogging calendar reluctantly. I don’t want to publish less than ten posts in a month, and that’s my new blogging challenge for myself. I’m usually psyched about all my poems, and my recent ones are no different, but I also shared a few lifestyle posts I’m proud of.

These are the other things I’ve been doing to help me get by.

• Listing the things I’m grateful for: We often take the things we have in our life for granted. Yes, I’m part of the “we”. When I’m feeling unaccomplished or lacking, I get my notepad and write the things I’m grateful for at that moment. And just like that, I feel joy and hope in my heart. You can try this too whenever you’re feeling low. I hope it helps.

• Reciting Affirmations: Affirmations are powerful, and if you haven’t gotten on the train, you better. Speaking positivity and accomplishments into your day/week pushes you to believe and live them. The fun thing about affirmations is that you can literally make it your own. Say the things you want to do, in the way you want to do them or get them. For instance: “I will attain my study goals this week“, “I will workout today“, “I’m a badass, I will crush the presentation“, etc.

• Listening to Music & Watching Shows/Movies: Distractions can be good, don’t listen to anyone who tells you otherwise. Music has a way of taking me to another place, moment, time, year, etc. Apple Music has been keeping me pretty occupied, and I’ve also been watching shows and movies more than I should because I should be studying, but…

I know things will get easier eventually, but I wish my eventually could be tomorrow. I didn’t have much to share, but I wanted to give this a try because I was sat for two hours trying to figure out what to write then this came to my mind.

Stay sane.

You should read this if you haven’t: You Were Made To Move

Mariam Shittu