A quiet reflection on growth, patience, uncertainty, and everything this season is teaching me.

I still can’t believe it’s almost the end of April. Life has been moving quickly, but at the same time, it feels like I’m being asked to slow down and really sit with where I am. After trying so much to fight it, it seems like I will just have to oblige because I’m tired of fighting.

Lately, I’ve been paying more attention to the quiet things. Not the loud milestones or big moments, but the small wins, the subtle shifts, the little changes, and the lessons that come without big splashes or announcements.

So here are a few things I’m learning in this season. Not perfectly, not completely, but honestly.

1.) Patience Is More Than Waiting

I’m learning that patience is not just about waiting. It’s about how I carry myself while I wait. How I think, how I relate, and how I handle the waiting period. It’s choosing not to rush outcomes or force timelines that were never mine to control. I’m still learning to accept that some things take time, not because I’m doing something wrong, but because they are still unfolding in ways I cannot see yet. The best will happen. This version of my story will end, and another season that requires my patience will take over.

2.) Discipline Stays When Motivation Fades

I’m learning that motivation comes and goes. I’ve seen that clearly. Some days I have high energy, and some days I’m very reluctant to get out of bed. However, discipline is what stays. That determination to keep going and to work hard at what I set my mind to. It’s in the small, repeated choices, the days I don’t feel like showing up but do anyway. I’m learning that consistency does not have to be loud to be effective. It just has to be steady. And I’m proud of myself for taking weekly steps towards the things I want to achieve.

3.) Rest is Necessary, Not a Reward

Rest is no longer something I want to earn. It’s something I need. My body reminded me that I had gone too far, and I had to take a step back, physically and mentally. I’m learning to approach life more deliberately and slowly, not like I’m in a race. I’m learning to listen sooner, to pause without guilt, and to understand that slowing down does not mean I’m falling behind.

4.) Uncertainty Can Feel Unsettling, But It is Also a Teacher

I’ve been carrying uncertainty over from last year, and not having all the answers yet has been very uncomfortable. I like clarity. I like knowing what comes next, or at least having some sense of predictability. This time, I feel completely blind, and it has been unsettling. I’m learning that this season is teaching me to exist without certainty and still move forward. To embrace what is clear and trust that even when things feel unclear, I am still being led somewhere meaningful. I’ve held on closely to this prayer: God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.

5.) Health is the Foundation for Everything Else

I’m paying more attention to my body now, more than I ever have. As someone who has always been mindful about exercising and what I put into my body, I’ve recently realized that my body needed a shift, and I gave it just that. I changed my eating habits and my workout routine. I’m giving my body what it needs and what it has been asking for. I’m not only focusing on the physical. I’m making moves on the social, mental, emotional and spiritual aspects of my health. I’m learning that prioritizing my health is not optional. It is the foundation for everything else I want to build, and I feel good when I’m getting it right. 

6.) Love Should Feel Safe

I’m learning that love is not confusion. It is not inconsistency. It is not manipulation, and it is not something I have to constantly question. It is something I should feel, recognize, and grow into without fear. I’m also learning not to ignore the love I have within myself while focusing only on finding it externally. I want to be content in my current state until good connections arise. I’ve been intentional about joining communities and engaging in new activities to keep me grounded.

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Overall, I’m focusing on my mindset and shifting it towards realistic positivity. I’m embracing change, trying new things, taking care of myself, and trusting the process.

I don’t have everything figured out. I’m still learning, still unlearning, still becoming. But I’m paying attention now, and I think that counts for something.

What is your current season teaching you?

Thanks for stopping by.

Mariam Shittu

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